Seoul Alone D-1

It took me a lot of time to decide whether want to go Seoul alone or not.. It was suppose me and my friend travelling together, but 2 weeks before flying she told me she can't go due to her personal problem.. 
so..
that's my decision now..

Like seriously, I never truly travel oversea like so many times or so experiences.. this is my 2nd time flying oversea and last year Thailand trip was my first time.. I have Thai friend to help me at there but at Seoul, where should I find one in this so damn last minute moment??!! I was worried alot and I even went to Korea Plaza and asked for guidance.. but the funny thing is.. it doesn't help me at all.. ==" good job, spec guy..

So, the story starts here.. I decide to travel alone at the so called last minute and my friend encouraged me alot and asked me to don't worry about it and just enjoy myself, that's all..

Seriously like, I didn't do my homework at all, I just list some places that I know and planned them day by day..(this is not good idea pls don't learn from me, if u want travel pls do some homework and plan them perfectly before you go)

Hmm.. I woke at 3am morning and packed all of my things and get prepare to go to my neighbour's  who is a taxi driver, she fetch me and my friend go to LCCT which reach at 5am smthg..

Am I nervous?? Telling the truth.. NO.. and I don't know why..

Am I scare?? Yes?? Maybe?? No?? I don't know seriously.. I really don't know what should I scare seriously..

My friend sent me and wait for me fly off which the plane started flying at 8am.. *and woah, the yellow haze was so terrible that I can't see where my plane is seriously..* and that's it.. I'M FLYING TO SEOUL FOR 6 HOURS..!!

okay, my thought was like maybe I could have some chit chat with the person who sit next to me.. and it was JUST my thought only, but at the end.. NO people sit besides me and passengers around me were keep looking me like I'm a weird girl or what VIP princess with all those weird staring.. I'm so pity T^T *forever alone*

The 6 hours flying suffered me like hell, cause I keep smelling the nasi lemak when I'm hungry and baby keeps crying while I'm sleeping.. and my stomach starting pain too, I donno why.. maybe I was too hungry or too nervous for this journey.. I think quite a lot all the way to Seoul.. X(

After 6 hours flying..

and finally.. FINALLY!! I reach to Seoul!! My dream land, Korea!! I'm reach.. safe and sound!! but still.. it's a strange place to me.. I don't know where to go and where to get my luggage and no guidance.. so I follow the crowded and took the TRAIN to get my luggage (so convenient.. not like Malaysia one.. k la, cheap ticket ma..) and ho ho ho.. the airport is so damn big that I don't know where to get my wifi route and AREX.. I was walking and finding around like an hour to collect the things that I want.. *stupid heavy luggage, u killing me like hell!!*

Luckily my hostel located at Hongdae which AREX can reach to that station straightly and no transit at all.. I made a mistake during came out from the ticket booth, luckily got a women come and help me and I keep thanking her alot.. it just so kamsamidaaaaaaa~ TT^TT so touch~

I don't know how to describe the moment when I come out to the city, it's just so unreal when u reach to another place which u never visited before.. just like store portal.. it's un-describable feeling when I look around.. that time I realised and truly felt myself that I'm really standing at Seoul now.. *gan dong~*

Then I reach my hostel quickly and put my things down and meet my roomates and managers as well.. *ugh~ so tired that I need to carry my luggage all the way to 4th floor!! ugh!!* It felt so strange at 1st cause they're unknown person to me.. Luckily there's one roomate from France, her name is Lowine, she told me that she going to visit Cheonggye Waterfall tonight.. since I had no plan and no idea where to go so I decide to follow her to travel all along..

 The night street is seriously beautiful and crowded.. I love this kind of night..!!

After we walked so long from all the way for visiting around and finally we went back to hostel and rest immediately since we just arrived today.. I was so tired that even myself also surprise that I fall asleep so fast.. In the middle of the sleep, I heard a lot of noise and I feel someone sleeping above of my twins bed.. I opened my eyes a little and saw my hostel manager waving at me saying "Good Night~" at the door.. and I was like What the Hell is he doing here??!! But I was too tired for saying something that I already fall into sleep once again.. XD

So this is my first day of Seoul Alone trip..

To be continue~ ^^

I miss them

Tomorrow

is my first day for my new job

Although it was seriously low salary

but I still learn to accept it

I need to think as I came for learning not for money

But still.. I'm not happy

and it's not about money.. *Although it still is, cause everyone said that I'm been bullied by them seriously.. and I feel so hurt*

Since I came back from there

what I realized that

I never thought that we're living at such a worst place..

I felt like I wanna bring all around my family and friends to there

cause we no need to worry for the safety-ness everyday everywhere and every minute..

and we can hang out whenever we want and have fun everyday

I want to bring my friend to play water and capture alot nice pictures..

I want to bring my family to eat and enjoy as much as we want..

I want to hang out after having a stressful work and chit chat for the whole night till the next morning..

I want to do whatever I want and no need to worry for being targeted every time..

and I miss my oversea friends alot.. I want to talk whatever to them and release my stress out loud at terrace.. and I miss the night of the cold air.. even it's really cold but I like it so so much.. 

But.. when can I have that kind of life again..??

It's really hard seriously..

Sometime, Life is so damn cruel that we are forced to accept it..

Seoul Alone

Now almost 3am in the morning at Seoul..

Few more days I'm going back to my country..

I tried and learned so many things here..

and started get use to it now..

and I don't feel like going back anymore..

Here's really safe and I felt like so protected..

Now I know why so many people like to go another country, cause none of the Asia country is danger than mine one.. 

I met so many people and so many things at here..

even just now having chit chat with housemate.. we knew each other so well now.. It's really nice seriously..

I wonder when is the next time I will come here.. alone? or with friends?

No one knows.. 

I starting love this life.. although it is short..

I'm gonna miss this..

曾经在意过他

我跟我同事说我需要辅导，他就很积极地开始问我

你最后一个暗恋的人是在几时？？

我想一想，突然想不起我暗恋过谁，是在几时……

想了很久，想到一位

而我连自己也不知道我自己是不是喜欢他

可是就是对他有那个动感

他说话很粗鲁，脑袋很聪明

个子不高，可是又会搞笑

他不是我的菜，但很谈得来，跟他在一起一点都不闷

记得他很大声地骂我，而且是很过分的言语

那时我很生气，可是心里有点伤，但我们的冷战一天都不到，他就用一个“装作没事”的方法拉我离开这个冷战的气氛

他那时跟我说他喜欢坐在我隔壁的女生

心里有少少的吃醋，可是不并没在意，反而很支持他

有一次，我不小心背叛了他，不知为何我把那个女生和别人凑在一起，他很伤心

我不断地跟他道歉，他却说不是我的错，不会怪我

我觉得好愧疚

更有一次，有人和我说你喜欢我

我觉得并不可能，可是那个人说是你说的

心里想那应该是很久的事吧，因为我知道你喜欢的是她，而我只不过是一个外表上受人喜欢的小女孩，那些人是我了解我的都知道，我是那么的惹人厌，很多心机的女生

更好笑的事

我根本都不知道什么叫心机，人家说我心机重

我承认我脾气坏，可是心机这个东西我根本都不知道是什么

越想越讨厌自己……没人喜欢并不奇怪

以前我记得我是个开朗，不管别人说什么我都不管的一个女生，所以身边的人很留意我

现在

有谁会记得甚至会想起我这个人的存在的女生……

话说回来，他现在有了女朋友，他很开心，也不再一个人孤单了

恭喜他，希望他们的关系可以维持长长久久

祝福他们，身为你的朋友也为你高兴……

要好好地爱她，别让她受伤害，对她好一点，知道吗？？

接着，我同事说有一位同事在暗恋我，吓得我很不安

因为觉得是不可能的事

结果真的是开玩笑，让我松口气

不是说我不喜欢他还是什么，可是就是觉得不可能

最后，我跟他说我需要的辅导不是爱情，而是金钱

虽然对爱情迫不急待，但为了对的人，我愿意等待，不管有多久

青春

女生在青春的时期，都会想拍个青春照

来保留自己的青春回忆

而自己就想拍泡泡照，在泡泡梦幻的环境展现自己调皮的一面

虽然没什么机会实现，不过有机会在公园拍照是一件很好的事了

就在朋友的生日那天，拍下几张照片

虽然不像专业的摄影师一样地拍，不过对这些照片已经满意了

看到自己又胖又圆的

好像感觉自己不太适合拍照的感觉

留给自己看好了.. :(

谢谢朋友的邀请，让我有庆祝多一次的生日派对

很开心，爱死你们了

Goodbye 2012 and say Hello to 2013 :)

 

Time flying so fast..

It's the end of the year..

Speaking about this year..

hmm.. not smoothly as much as last year actually..

many things happened, alot of surprises..

but I had learn alot and experience alot seriously..

1st time attend company event and loyal dinner..

1st time flying out of the country..

1st time owned a new phone..

1st time being a sales girl which serving foreigners everyday..

oh yeah.. another new experiences which I'm not tell XD

This year much harder and facing so much problems

but there always a fact which saying..

"Time will solve everything"

Yeah.. it's right..

 Let it be if it's already happened, hold on for awhile while you still facing it..

It is easy to say out loud, but the progress is much 10x harder than saying.. :/

Well, I'm facing alot problem right now..

and I don't know how to solve them..

*sigh*

2013, please treat me good.. oh yeah, the rest of the year also.. please ><

Happy 21st Birthday to myself ^^

还剩一点点的时间，我的生日要过期了

趁现在的时候写一写自己的感受吧

说真的要怎样庆祝我的生日，我还真的没想法

可能出去玩一玩，吃一吃，就这样过一天吧

这就是我们的现实庆祝法吧

不过我很开心那些可以和我一起庆祝的朋友们，为了我大风大雨而来，为了我牺牲睡眠的……

虽然可能对你们没什么然而很辛苦，可是这让我很愧疚，让我很对不起你们……觉得应该要报答一些什么的

总而言之，真的很谢谢你们，爱死你们了^^

说到庆祝，其实脑海里是有一点点的幻想

不知道是看太多小说还是部落格

脑海里突然想要这样那样庆祝

每次看到人家订酒店装饰美美的，为了给朋友一个生日惊喜

不然就到高高的餐厅，可以看夜景的地方庆祝生日

每次看到这些到好想要这样做

不过看看自己的状况，根本没有资格做到这种地步吧

还是想想算了吧

又有想旅行的想法了 ><

今年的生日礼物大部分都很惊喜，从来不会预料的,尤其是妈妈的

虽然不多，但很满足了

21岁了，真的成为大人了，要学会正真正真的独立了

前面的路是不会好走的，希望自己可以坚强一些些

大家要加油加油！！hwaiting!!

and Thanks to those who wish me Happy Birthday!! Love you guys!! Saranghae~!! ^^