High Expectation doesn't mean Happy Ending

expectation getting higher recently.. until just now..
someone pulled my expectation down seriously..
It always happened to me.. why?? why there always something will cut my happiness so suddenly?? even just a small happiness..

I'm already adult now.. no longer teenager or kids anymore.. and I just want to go an event.. not go clubbing or doing something illegal.. can't u just let me go?? I'm just going for one day not once a week.. U know that not only hurting me and U also hurting my friends too.. *sigh*

I need some freedom seriously.. U thought U already giving me freedom.. actually u're not.. cause U still controlling me.. part of my life actually..