whenever i'm hurt, i don't talk..

总以为自己可以解决一切

怎知最后还是得依靠别人

真的很恨我自己

已经很到没脸见人了

都几岁了，干吗还去缠着别人啊？？

不管怎样，希望可以尽全力来解决自己一切的问题

真的很对不起身边的人

要怪就怪我自己做人做得那么失败

我……真的可以吗？？

一直不断问自己

为什么

我不知道想说什么

更不知道为什么

好累

很想放弃

放弃所有一切

因为这已经证明了

我是个多么失败的人

:/ annoying

this few weeks I worried alot.. about wat?? 1st thing..

MONEY..

(Y? don't we get alot ang paus during CNY??) ya.. i know, but it's not much.. sommore I have to use to pay college fee by myself.. (y don't u ask ur parents??) I don wan to burden my mom alot coz she really spent alot in this CNY.. especially on FOODs.. it just *sigh*.. how about my dad?? don't even talk about him.. take his money just like take his life.. he don't even know the amount of college fees.. ugh~ speechless.. and because of this, I had to give up some of my wishlists.. so sad.. :(

2nd thing..

RESULT..

I bet I will fail most of them this time.. *sigh* oh my.. I'm gonna cry.. T.T blame myself alot.. okay, stop here.. just wait until result come out now.. :/ *nervous-ing*

3rd thing..

*secret* it's just my personal things.. haiz.. I think I just keep it to myself.. :)

I know every human will face many problems sometimes.. but every problem have the ways to solve itself.. and sometimes u had to give up something to get things solve easily.. I adi give up one.. just hoping the upcoming chances will give me some miracle.. ><

chocolateee~ ♥

valentine day?? I don't celebrate them.. but with my family.. I'm surprise.. just now my daddy bought us spaggeti and chocolate valentine cake for us!! *he actually wan mommy to eat the things tht he bought, but too bad.. my mom ignore them.. :/ so me and sister finished all of them.. hehe* XD wohoo~!! chocolateeeee milk~!!

oh ya.. today also my college reopen.. how's my class?? hmm.. so-so ler.. but finally I get to having class cyber center!! wuahaha.. so freedom.. and damn C.O.L.D.~~~~~

saw a lot sweet sweet couple today.. *just ignore them.. hurt my digestion* plus a sleeping boy sitting next to me.. I really worried tht he suddenly slp on my shoulder.. he's so weird.. everytime suddenly he awake, he keep staring at me.. I was acted like nothing happened.. maybe he's mad tht I sit on his place.. and I don wan too..!! if the person who didn asked me to sit on ur place, I rather standing!! *hmph!!* such a lame ppl.. *bluek!! XP*

anyway, even I hate Valentine, but I oso like to wish all of you.....

Happy Single Day!!!!!! XD

and 

Happy Valentine Day.. :)

yeah!!

nice pose, especially chiing hoong!! XD haha.. and thx for the movieee..!!

had fun with u guyz.. thx for invitation ya!! XD  will upload at FB soon.. stay tuned!!

fireworks everywhere.. love fireworks.. they r so beautiful.. it will be perfect if watching with ur loves.. ♥

hmm.. ><"

me >> mom, actually just now my classmate asked me can go my house bai nian or not..

mom >> what did u replied??

me >> sorry, house no people now..

mom >> *stared* 

me >> okay, mom.. I just telling the truth.. =="

mom >> *stared*

me >> okay, mom.. sorry..

OMG!! Big Bang X UniQlo tee!!

last Sunday, my mom suddenly wan bank in something so we just follow her.. after tht, she said she wanna bring sis go pavilion and see the CNY decoration.. sommore we can't go home tht time coz ppl's car blocking my house..

guess wat, on the way to pavilion.. we passed by UniQlo.. and I stopped.. when did I saw this tee before huh?? O.M.G.!! BIG BANG TEE!! I quickly rush into UniQlo and grab them!! but too bad I just found the last piece of GD tee and it's L size.. sommore the TOP and Taeyang tee adi sold out on Saturday which on released tht day..

haha.. I just realize I'm oso wearing UniQlo anime One Piece tee at the same time.. XD

BB tee shelves.. actually they have all of the designs but it's different from Big Bang wearing.. just like the doll wearing is GD tee but it in gray colour and GD wear in pink.. sommore most of the girls' size adi sold out.. now everyone is waiting for the restock.. I adi ask the staffs and they even can't confirm when it will restock.. I'm waiting for TOP and TaeYang tee now.. I heard tht the staff said TeaYang tee just sell 8 pieces only and it's sold out in a few minutes.. hmm.. *and the staff is wearing TeaYang tee tht time* XD

photo's credit >>  Nur Afifa Jalil from Uniqlo FB

actually we quite lucky coz there still left for u to grab but in Japan they adi finished on 15 minutes.. now the fans still Q-ing for waiting to restock.. even it's different colour tees.. anyway, thx to my mom coz she help me grab the last last last piece of M size of GD tee.. if not, it will be grab by another person which oso grabbing for this.. 

MOM~ I LOVE U~~ vry gan dong~~ wu wuu~~ ToT

for those who haven get them, pls be patient.. I believe they will be restock soon.. I'm oso waiting for retock.. just wait for awhile.. ><" *nervous*

CNY decoration

just a random posts.. I haven posts any decoration of Pavilion yet.. so, here is it!! hehe.. XD

LG floor selling alot related to chinese's things.. like mai ya tang, drawing pic, CNY deco things, and even carving photo also got.. wow.. quite alot ppl watching.. ya, full of ppl.. XD

  deco at Times Square but I didn capture all of the deco becoz of rushing.. XD

well, I guess I will end my posts with my sis and cousin's pic..

and guess wat.. I GOT MY BIG BANG G-DRAGON TEE!! wohoo~!! stay tuned!! XD

ang paus X valentine

hye, guyzz.. I guess everyone got ur ang paus right?? haha.. neither me too.. XD how much u collected them so far?? well, I haven count mine yet.. but I guess I will open them after collect all of the ang paus.. haha.. cant believe tht I will received TVXQ ang pau packets d.. XD hehe.. happy~

these few dayz, I had eating non-stop and I think my weight will gain non-stop too!! uughh~!! how come those foods can became so attractive one??!! and y ppl keep giving us delicious foods to us??!! no way no way, I had to lock myself in room and stop looking those delicious foods and stop eating!!!!! ><"

anyway, 2 days more everyone gonna go back to work and school lifes.. I think this is the most shortest period which celebrate CNY in holidays.. like chu 3 or 4, ppl gonna go back home from hometown adi.. basically, most of ppl go back from hometown at chu 5 or 6 somethings.. but because of the stupid short holidayzz, ppl gonna go back earlier.. ><" poor thing.. *but we abit lucky lah, cause KTAR holidays until valentine dayz XD*

btw, speaking about valentine, Valentine Day gonna coming vry soon *about a week something*, I guess now every couples is planning how to celebrate and having romantic moment with ur loves.. for those who r single like mua, staying at home slp better than going out and see those couple muack muack here muack muack there.. vry "black ppl hate".. I was planning tht day not going to college, sommore the next day is public holiday.. I don wan hurt my eyes on valentine and rest at home on public holidays..!! XP hmm.. well, I adi be "lightbulb" for many times, and ya, of coz I always feel awkward in front of them!! ugh~ *tht's why I always play and bully their bf to avoid them stick together or muack muack here muack muack there always, I wan them to know respect ur single frens when u and ur bf at the same place too, but it's a phailed to me too.. hmm*  

Big Bang X UniQlo X CNY

who said Uniqlo's style not cool????? those who knows wat is style just like Big Bang, those ppl definitely love Uniqlo cloths..!! XD

Now Uniqlo which located at Japan gonna sell BIG BANG T-SHIRT soon!! OMG!! donno Malaysia store will be selling it or not.. *pls pls pls, sell at here!!* and I oso heard tht Big Bang gonna coming here and open concert soon!! wohoo~!! can't wait!! XD

anyway, how's ur 1st day of CNY?? well, so-so here.. just a lil buzy and something happened here.. just a small case.. 

I don't really like CNY actually.. cause it drive me crazy.. I fall in love with CNY before.. tht just when I small, but now.. hmm.. it so tiring.. not because of making those foods.. it just because of someone..who like to spoiled everything such a happy moment.. such a hater.. :( *who said tht chu 1 cannot angry one?? even tht old ppl angry like wanna break everything!! hate it!!*

I just wanna have a peace CNY moment.. celebrate happily..

CNY is a moment which for family gather together.. not for the foods.. it about happy moment for families..

pls stop spoiling everything, if not, I wont standing there and watching.. pls watch out..

donno y can't upload photos, it said out of space.. huh??

New Year Eve.. x.x"

it's new year eve..!! post a new pic of oppa wearing hanbok.. XD one word, nice!! 

so, have u guys dinner with ur big big families tonight?? yeah, i did.. and it crack me up.. ugh~

from 7am until now.. I nvr rest and nvr stop doing stuff on dinner.. it's really damn tiring.. now I can't feel my legs at all.. but wat to do?? who ask tht my house is the main house and who ask tht CNY eve must have this traditions?? can't blame.. like my sister said, "it's adi classified.." hmm..

well, one more hour to go.. I guess I have to stop right now and go to slp early.. tmr I have to wake up at 6am and prepare CNY breakfast to my big big families.. hmm.. no doubt.. they said they wanna come at 9.30am.. ><" I was like "seriously??"..

anyway, CNY celebrate once a year and I guess I have to go over it.. *.*"

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